Happy Valentine’s Day peeps! I won’t exactly say that this will be a very good day for me… Mom’s in the hospital, AGAIN. She wouldn’t listen when her doctor told her to quit smoking. She kept at it, and see what she got: another room in the hospital. The doctor said she had a stroke again.

I don’t know if I should feel mad at my mom. My sister, if you’ve read this site from front to back, as you all know has psychological problems. She’s very emotional, and things like my mom getting sick is a bit too much for her to handle. I guess I’m not really mad at my mom, I’m just really FRUSTRATED. I’m really frustrated that she put her vice before my sister. My dad pointed out my sister’s reaction to her, and we’re really hoping it sank in… SOMEHOW. I love my mom, but I have to admit she’s very hard-headed. She was the only daughter of a rich pilot, very spoiled, so she’s so used to getting her way. But then again, there’s always hope. Maybe seeing how her illness affects my sister will somehow encourage her to quit smoking and change her bad habits. I myself used to smoke (shoot, I used to smoke almost a pack a day!), but I’ve already quit. It was really hard, but it’s very possible. It took a lot of my willpower, but quitting was really worth it. I feel as healthy as I did back in high school, before I started smoking.

I don’t really have it in me to celebrate Valentine’s Day today. Marc and I will probably just visit my mom at the hospital or stay at home and hang out. I’ll probably just distract myself with work too, and Marc will help me. Some date, huh? Well, can’t blame me. It’s hard to enjoy Valentine’s Day when you know your mom is lying in bed at the hospital with an oxygen mask ‘coz her smoking got the better of her health. ( Oh well, it’s just Valentine’s Day anyway. Marc and I can go out any time, on a different time when I’m in the mood.

It’s kind of lucky that I’ll be getting payments from my clients this week. I’ll be able to pay for my mom’s hospitalization (I don’t want to burden my dad with it), but I think I’ll put off buying an LCD monitor for now. I can still afford even with the hospital bill, but it doesn’t feel right. I don’t want to buy something as expensive as that when my mom is sick in the hospital. I think I’ll just save it for now, just in case my mom will need it again. Oh well, there’s always next time.

The dogs are my only company here at home when Marc’s not here. My dad and my sister are both at the hospital with my mom. I’m the “taong-bahay”. It’s kinda depressing when Marc’s not here to keep me company, but the dogs are trying. They’re ALL here in my computer room, keeping me company. Sheero is particularly sweet, sleeping on my lap while I work )

I’ll try to update this site soon. Sorry guys. I’ve been really busy. As you can see, I’m not just busy with work, I need to take care of my mom too. Don’t worry though, I’ll be adding new stuff soon. Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! I hope yours is better than mine )